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Monday, December 7th, 2009
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Right now I am looking at every single picture on my computer.
There is quite a few of me and Jimmy. Each one I look at my
heart just melts and my stomach is doing flips. I miss spending
every waking moment with you. 3 years and 8 months together
and you still give me butterflies. I'm counting down the days
until you come home for my birthday. I Love You James Schiano.
I feel so untouched that i want you so much that i just cant resist you.
it's not enough to say that i miss you.
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Friday, November 20th, 2009
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Life is pretty good right now. My main priorities consist of work and Jimmy.
I hardly ever hang out with people and that's fine. Occasionally I hang out
with Tom and Alex who are the best. But for now staying home and playing
xbox for hours on end is enjoyable. I have a interview/meeting with my district
manager next Sunday and I might be the next Manager at D'angelo. whoooo. :)
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Saturday, October 31st, 2009
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SO tonight I was on my way home from work when this person with a Conneticut
license plate is riding my ass. They zoom over to the next lane and then I watched
her come back into my lane and hit the Maxima in front of me. To be a good person
I followed and pulled over to fill out a witness report. The police were called at 10:55pm.
A cop FINALLY comes around 12:15...well over an hour after the accident happened.
Mind you I'm standing outside the entire time just waiting assuming an officer would
be there soon. Supposedly there was a shift changed which is why it took so long for
someone to come. Anyway, the cop comes and looks at both vehicles and then tells
me I'm all set to go home. I asked if I had to fill out paper work and he said no. So I
stood outside in the cold for an hour and a half just wasting my time when I was just
trying to be a good personand help someone out. Good karma better come out of
this! Tomorrow is Halloween and I am so damn excited to go trick or treating with Tay!
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Thursday, October 29th, 2009
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I finally got to see Jimmy again. I flew into Minneapolis on the 17th. Jimmy picked me up with Kidder and some girl Annie that he met. We hit up mall of America and did you know there's like 5 roller coasters in the middle of the mall? Sunday morning we started the 8 hour drive back to Minot. By Monday afternoon I felt horrible. I knew I was going to end up sick and sure enough I had a low grade fever. 6:30am my fever was 102.8. I kept taking Tylenol but the fever was constantly up and down. Wednesday I dragged my ass to the walk in clinic to spend 3 hours there waiting for the doctor to see me. Also while waiting for someone in Rhode Island to fax me my insurance card so I didn't personally get billed. I ended up having bronchitis. Oh and the doctor was telling how there is alot of swine flu out in North Dakota. Super. Anyway, while I was out there visiting Jimmy, we didn't do anything too crazy. I hate that there is only one road out there and that EVERYONE'S car is so fucking dirty.
The license plates were not even legible. I never saw any neighborhoods besides the nice houses that are on base but that doesn't really count. North Dakota is about as boring as Rhode Island, but fuck, half my heart is out there. I love Rhode Island because it's home, but I would have no problem packing up all my shit just to be with Jimmy. He's that important to me and there just is nothing here for me. I could always go school but I could do that anywhere. I really want to call Jim and have a nice conversation with him but I feel bad about waking him up. I think I'll give it a shot anyway and see how far it gets me. All he needs to tell me is "goodnight" and I'll be satisfied with that. :) goodnight.
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Monday, October 5th, 2009
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Right now I'm really fucking frustrated. People are just so fucking
self-absorbed they can't even notice anyone else beside themselves.
I want every person in my life to read this so they know I DO NOT
ENJOY HANDING OUT CIGARETTES LIKE THEY COME OUT MY
FUCKING ASS. Quit being a jew and buy them yourselves. If you
don't have the money, too fucking bad. Then maybe you shouldn't
be smoking. And if you do have the money but are too fucking cheap
to spend 8 buck on a pack, then you shouldn't be smoking. Simple.
I don't spend my money on cigarettes to give them to people. It's
annoying and really pisses me off. Now go fuck yourself.
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Friday, September 25th, 2009
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Fuckkkkk it's 3:30am and I can't sleep which is unlike me. Lately I've
been in bed every night no later than 12. But I guess that's what I get
for taking half an adderall earlier that Evan gave me. He is officially no
long a D'angelo employee. I just got the hiccups right now. Don't know
why since I haven't had anything to drink but I did eat a banana 15 minutes
ago. There was a brown spot on it which I ate anyway. I wonder if that's
bad for me or not. ANYWAY I really need to go to bed, I have work at 10
tomorrow and I have to leave earlier to bring my sister to work since
we're both in at 10. I just wanted to post a pointless entry because I
was bored and I can't harvest any crops on farmville HA! But really
I just wanted to write in my journal that I think this year I'm going to
mail Christmas cards to everyone and that's pretty much it. Goodnight!
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Thursday, September 24th, 2009
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Sometimes life is just unfair.
Rest In Peace Jean Dordine.
6.2.60 - 9.21.09
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Sunday, September 20th, 2009
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I'm satisfied; not completely happy, but satisfied.
Things WILL be good, it just needs time. ♥
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Monday, September 7th, 2009
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5 months ago i was expecting to be in North Dakota by September 1st.
it's too bad i'm not there yet but there is still the possibility that i will be
going still. i hope its soon. i can't stand being away from jimmy anymore
and i'm sick of being a bum. all i do is work and smoke pot. i just want to
go back to school and do something productive with my life. but i want
babe to be by my side the entire time. <3
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Tuesday, September 1st, 2009
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HOLY shit it's September first. Did summer ever come? Well at least
it wasn't a total waste and I had some fun. and i got to go to the beach
twice, with tay! i got to go to Texas twice! and Jimmy came home too.
All of that in a matter of 6 months. Anyway, Cranston public schools
started today which means more traffic. I would like to enjoy the fall.
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Monday, August 31st, 2009
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Since Jimmy left I'm back in that mood where going out just doesn't sound appealing.
I much rather stay home and sit on the computer for 5 hours. I feel more irritable and
when people talk to me I get annoyed easily. I just want to be left alone, except for Jim.
He's the only person who makes me smile every time he calls. I miss playing World
of Warcraft. I haven't played in a few weeks. I have work in 12 minutes and I really don't
want to go. Can someone please explain to me why i'm stuck here and not in North Dakota?
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Tuesday, August 25th, 2009
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Jimmy came home last saturday. I can't believe 10 days went by already
and once again he's gone. But overall i had a really good time while he
was home. we didn't really do too much until thursday night since i worked
sunday through wednesday. thursday night we went to chris and lisa's house
for burgers and hung out in the hot tub for a few hours afterward. friday we
had lunch at jim and amy's then i worked. saturday me and jimmy went to
six flags. <3 so much fun but makes you so tired. sunday we spent the whole
at jimmy's gram's house. monday i babysat and then worked. after me and jim
went to oakland beach for a little bit. last time jim will see a beach for a loooong
time. me, jimmy, and sue went to the airport this morning. they let us go through
security and wait at the gate with him until he boarded. i was so glad they let us
do that. i hate saying goodbye. its so hard and every time i do i feel like i lose a
part of myself. back to working my ass off and saving as much money as i can
until i drive up to north dakota in hopefully 3-4 weeks.
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2 more weeks until babe comes home.
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Dear Rhode Islanders:
Blinkers were put on cars so people behind you know when you're fucking turning.
Also, you don't put them on right before you turn. You put your directional on at least
100 feet before you turn. In case you didn't know that, then obviously you did not go
to drivers education; therefore you should not be on the road. Thank you and fuck off.
-xoxo
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Saturday, June 20th, 2009
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i feel so sad right now. i wish you would call me back. :[
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i finally got to see jimmy again. haven't seen him since
the first week of march. texas is absolutely beautiful!
i wish i could live there. me and jimmy both got our
second tattoos. he got my lip print tattooed on his man
boobie. :D fantastic weekend. couldn't of ask for more.
i love you bebb. april seventh two thousand and six.
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it's june 1 and it's absolutely gorgeous out!
i saw tom and alex saturday night. we went
on a journey to super wal-mart and wendy's.
it was worth the trip to coventry. i miss jimmy
but this coming thursday i will be on a plane
to texas at 6:30 in the morning. yippeee <3
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Thursday, April 30th, 2009
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FUCK EVERYTHING. i was ready to go. i had almost everything packed.
then i find out that other people were fucking around now jimmy's whole
fucking squadron is phase 1 which means he can't leave the base.. it's
only for the weekend but of course it's the fucking weekend i was going to
see him! we didn't rent a car. so it would be fucking pointless for me to go
to mississippi to sit in a fucking hotel for 3 days. and it's bullshit that jimmy
is being punished for something that he didnt fucking do. now i have to wait
a few more weeks for jimmy to get to texas and figure out when i wanna go
visit for how long and all that bullshit again. oh and i was at work covering
for someone when i was told i'm not going to mississippi anymore. i cried
for 3 hours. and nobody would fucking cover for me. i do so much for that
shit hole and get nothing in return. i'm sick of it.
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Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
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Mississippi tomorrow! i'm sooo exciteddd.
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Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
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there's one week left of school. the following week is finals.
i failed and i know it. i did nothing to prevent it. i missed too
many classes. i gave absolutely no effort whatsoever and i
don't give a shit. going back to school this semester was a
mistake. if jimmy was here then i wouldn't be having such a
hard time but whatever; shit happens. i'll see him in one week.
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